10 Weeks

Well so much for that crazy roller coaster being done, we are still riding and just trying to stay positive. After the last post about our ER visit, I layed around all weekend and totally stopped spotting and everything seemed to be fine. A week goes by and we get to Father's Day when I wake up with quite a bit of spotting. The on-call Dr is not worried at all and said if it continues to call my OB on Monday. So Monday morning I gave Dr Cueto a call and he also was not concerned, but I asked him to order an ultrasound anyway since it would put my mind at ease. Tuesday morning we get our ultrasound and hold our breathes until we saw that beautiful flickering heartbeat! That moment was such a relief. The US tech explained everything to us, pointed everything out, told us the heart beat was 174 which is perfect, baby measured 9 weeks (I was 9 weeks and 2 days at that point so that was also perfect) and then she pointed out exactly where I was bleeding from. It was this dark spot in between the placenta and uterus that was 4.3 cm long. Another sigh of relief, it was nice to see the blood wasn't coming from inside the "baby's home" and we figured all was good. The Dr released the US result online and never even called me to discuss it so we figured we were good to go.

The next night, Wednesday at 1:30 am I wake up and go to the bathroom and TONS of red blood was in the toilet and 2 HUGE clots came out also. Surprisingly I didn't freak out, I think because I knew I didn't see any "product of the pregnancy" so I figured it was just that blood spot that was coming out. I woke up Nick to show him and called the on-call Dr even though I knew they would tell me to take it easy and there's not much else I can do- which is exactly what the Dr told me when she called back 5 minutes later. To say the least, we didn't sleep very good the rest of the night but went about our day going to work Thursday morning. I felt pretty crampy but at least I wasn't bleeding red in the morning, I was just spotting- but that was starting to be my norm with this pregnancy.

I wasn't even going to call Dr Cueto since I knew what he would tell me and that everything would be fine so I was just going to go about my business. But the more I thought about it, I started to worry that since that much blood came out I didn't know how that would affect the placenta "sticking" to the that side of the uterus, so I called to just ask that quick question. Well, I get a call back, and this time from Dr Cueto himself (he had not called me personally through all this yet) and he said I need to be on modified bed rest. Wait... what?! Did he just say bed rest? He continued on... I have what is called a subchorionic hemorrhage ( that was the dark spot on the US that I was bleeding from), it sounded like it might have come out when I went to the bathroom the night before and now there is a risk for the whole placenta disconnecting and that would obviously end the pregnancy. He's telling me this as I'm in the middle of work and had been running around all morning rooming patients like nothing was wrong. He said for the next 4 days I need to lay around, not do anything, not even drive, and I should definitely leave work right that moment. This is when it hits me and as I'm trying to explain to my coworkers why I need to leave I break down crying, this whole time we have been told not to worry, bleeding can be normal during pregnancy, and just take it easy with no sex or exercise and now they were really concerned which made me concerned. I kept feeling this whole pregnancy that things weren't right but they would just reassure me saying everything is fine and looked normal on my ER US (the hemorrhage was not present on the that US meaning it grew that big in only 11 days!), but now we're in danger of losing the baby. It was seriously too much to take in.

The last 4 days I have barely left the couch and I'm trying to get as much rest as I can. Thankfully the cramping has stopped and now I'm just spotting but at least it's not red blood, so that's a good sign. Of course after researching the hemorrhage all weekend, it seems like this might be a problem we deal with the whole pregnancy (God forbid!), it can get smaller and then larger again, or my body can totally absorb it and we won't have to worry about it anymore. I haven't been able to get any definite answers yet, we have a Dr appointment on Thursday and we'll get another US at that point. We are, of course, hoping the hemorrhage came out and everything reattached to the uterus just fine. At this point we still feel in limbo, the more days that pass without bleeding we get more hopeful, but we know we can't get to excited just yet. We were so excited to get pregnant and now with these problems we feel like we can't fully enjoy it, but hopefully we will soon. We also figure if this is the only problem we encounter through this whole experience then we feel blessed, some people have to deal with a lot more than we have had to, so, so far we feel pretty lucky that we keep getting the chance to get closer to bringing another baby into this world. Hopefully the following posts on this pregnancy will have a happier note from here on out!

To keep the pregnancy stats going:

Weight- 4lbs gained, of course I probably shouldn't have really gained any but according to recommendations 2-5lbs in the first trimester is ok, so I'm right on track. Now, 4 lbs doesn't seem like a lot but my clothes sure think so, everything is starting to fit weird and be uncomfortable so I'm trying to get a few items here and there to make it a little more comfortable until I need to wear maternity.

Mood/Feeling- I have been obviously having a roller coaster of emotions, we are trying to stay positive but it's hard to not be frustrated with everything going on. We go from super excited that everything is going to work out to freaked that it can all change in a moment, but we are taking it all one day at a time.

Food/Cravings- The last 2 weeks I have been more nauseous than ever, barely anything sounds good and I can only eat something that sounds good or I feel like I'm gonna puke. Cooking at home as been so hard since nothing sounds good so we've been eating out more than I would like, but right now it's all that sounds good. I also find, I'm getting full sooner but I keep eating since I know how hungry I was before I started eating, but if I eat too much then that food won't sound good for awhile. Things that I've been craving: mexican food (like every day), cereal, fruit, orange juice, and Italian food (recently I've made lasagna and chicken parm and both were delicious). Things I'm over at the moment: pizza, anything BBQ'd, and veggies are difficult to get down sometimes.

More to come, I'll update after our appointment on Thrusday!